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Do I?

do i want to be hurt?
do i want to cry?
do i want to feel like a pice of crap?
do i want to be blamed on everything?

no. but this is all i got.

do i want to stay?
do i want to leave?

I care no more.

you taught me to be good.
you taught me to be nice.
you taught me to be friendly.
you taught me to be cool with everything.
you taught me how to smile.
you taught me how to behave.
you taught me how to listen.

but,
you taught me to be hard.
you taught me to be emotionless.
you taught me how to collect haters.
you taught me not to care.
you taught me how to feel hurt.
you taught me to be who i am not.
you taught me not to say a word.

you don't want me.
you want me to be what you want.
now, this is me.
programmable robot.

Is this the end?

I almost forgot my feelings towards this relationship.
I feel like I'm not more than just a stranger in my own relationship.
I never forget what I said to you.
How I felt in our getaway and dates. 
But apparently, I forgot how was those feelings. 
I am no longer feeling it anymore.

You called me unemotional person.
It's only because you never try to see it through.
You told me I can talk to you about everything.
The fact is I can't because you never and won't listen.

Who talks to someone who don't listened?
Nobody will. 
You hate it when I talk.
You hate it when I keep silence and just listen.
You hate it when I smile.
You hate it when i gave you those long text messages.
You hate it when i give you one line text. 

You really hate my guts, don't you?