20121211

Too good to be true.

People say falling in love is easy. But not for me. I found it hard. People once said, staying in love is the most difficult part. Wrong for me thou i find it easier than tolerating of being real and pleasing people.

The hardest thing i've been through is being honest actually not the kind of attitude people want to see and face. They prefer me to be polite and have a nice tongue. But me, I want people to be honest and transparent with me. You don't like me? Say it out aloud, I won't mind. I don't need people to lie to me for the sake of pleasing me. I am a wise and grown up woman. I can take criticisms as built comments.

How I could improve myself if people keep lying to me? I won't. I will stay being ridiculous, nonsense and I might not face any rejection nor objection. I learn it my own way. I get through everything all by myself. I think I shouldn't take what people say as a serious matter. If you want me to say something nice which is untrue, I am sorry. I can't. If you thing the truths are hurtful and you can't handle it, ask me nothing.

20121205

by the way

Sometimes I find it difficult to communicate what I'm feeling because I shut down all emotional responses when hurt.

20121204

wish lists

1. SIGMA SD1
mungkin DSLR Pentax 645D tu dah cukup besar megapixelnya, 40MP. DSLR Hasselblad H3D|| pun baru 39MP. tapi SIGMA SD1 ni 46MP! memang mantap! aku dah check review apa semua pun memang stim gila kot.



2. FUJITSU LIFEBOOK 2013
perfect and complete. tu je aku mampu cakap. sebab nak beli memang belum mampu. tak payah nak susah2 bawah ipad, camera, laptop, phone bila nak travel. semua ada kot. jimat ruang, tapi tak jimat poket. tang keyboard tu yang menusuk kalbu tu. sensor. macbook kau ada? hahaha mac pon tak ada kan? :D

Dua cukuplah. Banyak-banyak wish lists buat apa kalau tak mampu. 

Perut minta nasi, aku beri roti.

Tanpa mukaddimah yang skema dan bertamadun. Dan tanpa huraian lanjut. Hanya klimaks yang aku hujahkan. Hidup aku terumbang-ambing. Kerja, belajar, hubungan sesama manusia, dan masa. Yang paling teruk, kewangan. Akhir kata, kena kuat dan cari jalan permudah segala. Sekian.